He goes utterly stiff. No. He won't push her off. No. What he wants is to wrap his arms around her and let these tears stinging the back of his eyes finally fall. But he can't. He shouldn't. She shouldn't have to deal with how broken he really is. She has her own worries. Yet he can't stop himself from spilling the words, the moment he feels the warmth of her embrace against him.
"No," it comes out a sob despite his best efforts. "It's not. It's not my nature. It's a mistake. My nature is to...be quiet and do as I'm told. I should have stuck to that. I'm not... I'm not good at this. I want to be, but I'm not."
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Date: 2020-12-05 07:58 pm (UTC)He goes utterly stiff. No. He won't push her off. No. What he wants is to wrap his arms around her and let these tears stinging the back of his eyes finally fall. But he can't. He shouldn't. She shouldn't have to deal with how broken he really is. She has her own worries. Yet he can't stop himself from spilling the words, the moment he feels the warmth of her embrace against him.
"No," it comes out a sob despite his best efforts. "It's not. It's not my nature. It's a mistake. My nature is to...be quiet and do as I'm told. I should have stuck to that. I'm not... I'm not good at this. I want to be, but I'm not."