The taste of beer explains a little about how they were moving when they got in. Now Max is the one tempted to go find his whiskey stash. He resists. He promised Lucas he would be better about that.
"I know... doesn't stop it from hurting sometimes..." He nuzzles them back, eyes closing as he sucks in a breath.
They're going to tell Lilith they don't want to speak to her? There's a stab of guilt that tries to pry his ribs apart and worm inside, but it doesn't quite land. Instead, there's another realization blooming in his chest. He's not sure he wants to talk to Lilith again either after this. She's yelled at him before, and he's deserved it before. Maybe he deserved it this time too but... every time it happens, he feels a part of himself shatter. And it takes him time to pick up the pieces. And the last few times... it's been Rowan who had to help him do it. That's not fair to either of them.
"I think maybe... I'll tell her the same. This is... " he sighs. "It's hard for me to say. I'll always care about her but... we don't get along so well sometimes. So maybe it's like you said: this way we can't make it worse."
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Date: 2021-07-03 02:55 pm (UTC)"I know... doesn't stop it from hurting sometimes..." He nuzzles them back, eyes closing as he sucks in a breath.
They're going to tell Lilith they don't want to speak to her? There's a stab of guilt that tries to pry his ribs apart and worm inside, but it doesn't quite land. Instead, there's another realization blooming in his chest. He's not sure he wants to talk to Lilith again either after this. She's yelled at him before, and he's deserved it before. Maybe he deserved it this time too but... every time it happens, he feels a part of himself shatter. And it takes him time to pick up the pieces. And the last few times... it's been Rowan who had to help him do it. That's not fair to either of them.
"I think maybe... I'll tell her the same. This is... " he sighs. "It's hard for me to say. I'll always care about her but... we don't get along so well sometimes. So maybe it's like you said: this way we can't make it worse."