Max reads the note with a rising sense of dread. He has to...hand these out? Every time??
"What the fuck?" He says to his empty room.
First, he has to keep a sexcapade journal, now this? Is Jackie trying to murder his sex life completely? He drags a hand down his face as he reads and re-reads the cards. There's a twinge of anger at seeing collars placed firmly on the no list. Even with Jackie's note on that point, he wants to rail against it. He didn't say he hated them! He said he didn't know! And his experience with Lilith wasn't so bad. He'd struggled for other reasons during that but...
He sighs, remembering Jackie's order. Only Lucas or Rowan. And if he wants that to change then he'd better get one of them to help him explore it. But if he does... then it has to go in the journal.
"Augh!" He squeezes the back of his neck, another tension headache is on its way. How is he going to explain that? Or the cards? Or ANY of this? Can he not tell them about the journal...? They are both such private people, Rowan especially...
Speaking of...that note at the end gives him a whole different spike of anxiety. A play date, like what he and Jackie talked about during his feeding? Could they? But how the hell is he going to broach that idea? Will Rowan go for it?
He just doesn't know. He doesn't know about any of this. A week or so ago he was happy enough to run around the castle with his balls on display for all to see, now he's considering taking a break from any kind of relations at all. Could he do that? Maybe just until the two months is up? But that might only prolong the suffering.
"Fuck my life..." And fuck Jackie too! What the hell has he gotten into?
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Date: 2020-09-11 03:45 am (UTC)"What the fuck?" He says to his empty room.
First, he has to keep a sexcapade journal, now this? Is Jackie trying to murder his sex life completely? He drags a hand down his face as he reads and re-reads the cards. There's a twinge of anger at seeing collars placed firmly on the no list. Even with Jackie's note on that point, he wants to rail against it. He didn't say he hated them! He said he didn't know! And his experience with Lilith wasn't so bad. He'd struggled for other reasons during that but...
He sighs, remembering Jackie's order. Only Lucas or Rowan. And if he wants that to change then he'd better get one of them to help him explore it. But if he does... then it has to go in the journal.
"Augh!" He squeezes the back of his neck, another tension headache is on its way. How is he going to explain that? Or the cards? Or ANY of this? Can he not tell them about the journal...? They are both such private people, Rowan especially...
Speaking of...that note at the end gives him a whole different spike of anxiety. A play date, like what he and Jackie talked about during his feeding? Could they? But how the hell is he going to broach that idea? Will Rowan go for it?
He just doesn't know. He doesn't know about any of this. A week or so ago he was happy enough to run around the castle with his balls on display for all to see, now he's considering taking a break from any kind of relations at all. Could he do that? Maybe just until the two months is up? But that might only prolong the suffering.
"Fuck my life..." And fuck Jackie too! What the hell has he gotten into?