"I understand duty. I understand sacrifice. But... if you can't protect the people you care most about, what is it all for?"
Maybe that's selfish of him, but it's how he feels. What good is it, saving the world, if everything you love is gone from it?
"I'll do anything for him, or for you. But some things are just..." The words choke off in his throat.
Images flash before his eyes. Brutal moments where he watched Erik drag away a blood-crazed Childe, one of the poor turned souls Erik's sister had left in her wake. That only happened twice. But both times, the house range with pitiful wails, before descending into a cold, dreary silence. And then his Master would walk through the halls for the next feel days looking broken and hollow. It was his duty, he'd say. A necessary evil. A kindness, to put them out of their misery.
"Killing Lucas like that would not be a kindness! Not ever. I can't see it that way. I can't. I never will. If that's how she really feels about it then... maybe I'm not as sorry for what I said."
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Date: 2021-07-02 09:25 pm (UTC)Maybe that's selfish of him, but it's how he feels. What good is it, saving the world, if everything you love is gone from it?
"I'll do anything for him, or for you. But some things are just..." The words choke off in his throat.
Images flash before his eyes. Brutal moments where he watched Erik drag away a blood-crazed Childe, one of the poor turned souls Erik's sister had left in her wake. That only happened twice. But both times, the house range with pitiful wails, before descending into a cold, dreary silence. And then his Master would walk through the halls for the next feel days looking broken and hollow. It was his duty, he'd say. A necessary evil. A kindness, to put them out of their misery.
"Killing Lucas like that would not be a kindness! Not ever. I can't see it that way. I can't. I never will. If that's how she really feels about it then... maybe I'm not as sorry for what I said."