[And this is where Ren struggles because at her heart she fears this is some stupid infatuation - the type that the Fianna are known for falling into with the first pretty face that crosses them. But deeper, the thought that it might not be scares her more.]
Nobody ever asked me to stay before. [While Lexa might not have known it, that gesture had been confusing to Ren on so many levels.] It's...everything's always 'cos it's the right thing to do and it's the way things have always been done. But even when I was sneakin' about before me change...nobody asked me to stay then either. I'm not...people don't...who wants a shag with a bad temper to stick about?
She's special. Not 'cos she's a fuckin' warleader or 'cos she can probably kick my arse. She actually wanted us to stay. She wanted my attention. She doesn't treat me like I'm stupid. She keeps saying I can do better and I want to. And it was nice and new and now I've fucked it all up 'cos I didn't believe that anyone ever wants us to stay around.
A full moon is a delight to be viewed from a distance. [Ren was referencing her auspice.]
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Date: 2020-10-15 04:04 pm (UTC)[And this is where Ren struggles because at her heart she fears this is some stupid infatuation - the type that the Fianna are known for falling into with the first pretty face that crosses them. But deeper, the thought that it might not be scares her more.]
Nobody ever asked me to stay before. [While Lexa might not have known it, that gesture had been confusing to Ren on so many levels.] It's...everything's always 'cos it's the right thing to do and it's the way things have always been done. But even when I was sneakin' about before me change...nobody asked me to stay then either. I'm not...people don't...who wants a shag with a bad temper to stick about?
She's special. Not 'cos she's a fuckin' warleader or 'cos she can probably kick my arse. She actually wanted us to stay. She wanted my attention. She doesn't treat me like I'm stupid. She keeps saying I can do better and I want to. And it was nice and new and now I've fucked it all up 'cos I didn't believe that anyone ever wants us to stay around.
A full moon is a delight to be viewed from a distance. [Ren was referencing her auspice.]