[He can't ask her to stop him. Because he can't... he can't take Lucas' choice from him. He can't become like his Master, no matter how terrified it makes him.
At least... if Lucas does get sent back, Max can have faith that he'll be going back to a job he loves and a family that loves him. Max clings to the comfort in that knowledge.]
Something I'm still getting used to about loving someone. Means you're scared for them a lot too.
I guess I don't want him to know how worried I am. I don't want him to feel guilty about it. If he asks, though, you don't have to lie. I won't ask you to do that either.
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[Private]
Date: 2021-01-09 04:29 am (UTC)Please do. And... ...
[Max seems to hesitate. There are dots on the page where he's tapping the pen while he thinks.]
You should know that I... I asked him not to push too hard to investigate the fae anymore. I was scared for him. And you. But I...
[More dots. More hesitance.]
I know that's like asking a fish not to swim so... please. Please watch out for him, for me? If he does still... do it.
[Private]
Date: 2021-01-09 05:06 am (UTC)I told you. I won't let him get in trouble. And I'll watch out for him. I promise.
[ That doesn't feel like quite enough. ]
I'm sorry to scare you.
That's not fun, either.
Re: [Private]
Date: 2021-01-09 05:21 am (UTC)[He can't ask her to stop him. Because he can't... he can't take Lucas' choice from him. He can't become like his Master, no matter how terrified it makes him.
At least... if Lucas does get sent back, Max can have faith that he'll be going back to a job he loves and a family that loves him. Max clings to the comfort in that knowledge.]
Something I'm still getting used to about loving someone. Means you're scared for them a lot too.
Please don't mention any of this to him?
[Private]
Date: 2021-01-09 05:31 am (UTC)Yeah. It means being scared of a lot, I guess.
Why don't you want me to tell him?
Is there something you'd rather I tell him instead?
I don't know if I want to lie to him.
Re: [Private]
Date: 2021-01-09 05:44 am (UTC)[There's another pause.]
I guess I don't want him to know how worried I am. I don't want him to feel guilty about it.
If he asks, though, you don't have to lie. I won't ask you to do that either.
Re: [Private]
Date: 2021-01-09 05:58 am (UTC)Max, if you're this worried, he probably already knows. You know that, right?
Re: [Private]
Date: 2021-01-09 03:37 pm (UTC)[There he goes tapping the book again. His handwriting is getting a little less neat too.]
I know. I'll talk to him. I will. Soon.
Re: [Private]
Date: 2021-01-09 07:36 pm (UTC)Okay.
It'll be okay.
We'll be okay, Max.
Re: [Private] done!
Date: 2021-01-11 02:32 am (UTC)