( Max would be disappointed by a lot of answers Zevran would be inclined to give for many of those questions. He felt confident he already was the best version of himself regardless of Solona's influence, and what defined 'good', truly?
Some were easier to answer, though. Yes, he could see himself spending every day here with her, and yes the thought of seeing her hurt (again) was an unpleasant one. Growing old...well, he was an assassin. He should have been dead by now anyway, and she already was, so that just seemed silly. )
Emotions are a dangerous thing to an assassin, and I have been trained to be cold and unfeeling to focus solely on killing, on doing my duty as a Crow. ( he felt love once before, he thinks, with Rinna, before he betrayed her trust and watched Talisen run her through. His heart had ached, but it was so easily ignored in that moment; unnecessary as the feeling had been. ) If all that you say is love - then I suppose I do love her.
But it is not my place to burden her with such things.
[Disappointed, maybe, but not shocked. Love is a lot of things, all very individual.]
I don't doubt that. But the Crow aren't here and she is. What if she doesn't see it as a burden at all? What if she feels the same? This is the chance of two lifetimes for you.
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Date: 2021-09-29 09:51 pm (UTC)Some were easier to answer, though. Yes, he could see himself spending every day here with her, and yes the thought of seeing her hurt (again) was an unpleasant one. Growing old...well, he was an assassin. He should have been dead by now anyway, and she already was, so that just seemed silly. )
Emotions are a dangerous thing to an assassin, and I have been trained to be cold and unfeeling to focus solely on killing, on doing my duty as a Crow. ( he felt love once before, he thinks, with Rinna, before he betrayed her trust and watched Talisen run her through. His heart had ached, but it was so easily ignored in that moment; unnecessary as the feeling had been. ) If all that you say is love - then I suppose I do love her.
But it is not my place to burden her with such things.
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Date: 2021-09-29 09:58 pm (UTC)I don't doubt that. But the Crow aren't here and she is. What if she doesn't see it as a burden at all? What if she feels the same? This is the chance of two lifetimes for you.
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Date: 2021-09-29 10:01 pm (UTC)( he will consider it, at any rate. ) Well, this has been fun, but I really should be going now. Thank you for...indulging me, Max.
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Date: 2021-09-29 11:27 pm (UTC)Good luck, Zevran, whatever you decide to do.
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Date: 2021-10-01 04:02 pm (UTC)